my thoughts

If I could have anything in this world it would be for the freedom to choose my fate.  

We all think we can, but realistically we are told what we can do by everyone in charge.

I went to the bank to get cash.  I have noticed that every time I do they act like I'm taking something from them.  Subtle  but obvious .  Its my choice to pay with cash.  Not theirs.  

Going to the doctor  knowing their hands are tied to only give certain treatments with restrictions on what is available. 

When the proof is there that something simple and less devastating to the body can cure a disease, we are not given the choice to do so.  In fact, we are told no, because they can't give us the very treatment we need.

If we don't comply with them, we lose.  

I could go on forever on this subject.

Buying a home or selling a home is under scrutiny... again we are not really owning it, we rent it.  If we don't do certain things that should be our choice, we stand to lose it.  I am just observing from what I see everywhere. 

We are constantly invaded by Spyware.  Our conversations are not private.  Proof is in all the ads and how social media immediately drowns us in ads.  Monitoring our every move, conversations, who we talk to, what we watch, what we buy is not a conspiracy theory, its a fact.

Free speech is situational.  Not everyone can say what they want.  Agree or not, I have experienced it more often than not.

I am glad my days are numbered.  I can't function in this world. It's overwhelming and most days I stay home, because I have a sense of belonging for once in my life.

To drive is not just painful,  it fills me with anxiety.  People are crazy.  They cut you off, pass you on double yellow lines and nearly hit you as they move back into the lane.  

Shopping is difficult too.  Poison in every aisle.  All to make people rich,  and then to make us sick.

I am a realist.   I don't believe in anything that is fed through social media.  Yep,  I'm having a complete and utterly mental awareness about life.